Monday, March 22, 2010

My secret mistake- giving you a second chance. I knew you were a horrible friend, but I chose to put everything I had into you once again. Shame on me, then. You messed with me once, and that was your fault. You messed with me again, and it was in my hands. I shouldn't have trusted you. And My biggest mistake is still wanting to befriend you, although I know how horrible you are.
My secret mistake was talking to my ex boyfriend, sending pictures, and most of all going to see him three hours away from me without my husband knowing. I traveled three hours to see another man, alone, in the firehouse, in the bunk room. My secret mistake was too follow him upstairs, sitting next to him on the bed. And most of all, that very long hug that made me melt. My mistake was lieing to my husband all day, and every day since then. My secret mistake is that I married the wrong man. The only thing that allows me to live with myself is knowing that I never made the mistake of having sex with anyone but my husband.
My secret mistake was leaving you. You gave me the option of taking a break rather than breaking up yet I chose to break up and it eats at me every day. My friends have said I should get back together with you but I can't bring myself to admit to other people I made the mistake of letting you go in the first place.

Friday, February 12, 2010

My secret mistake was not correcting you when you decided that I was lying about the possibility of me being pregnant. I was late at the time that I told you. I did not lie and I should not have let you think i did.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

My secret mistake was believing that things had gotten better. That my mother had gotten better. That my brother had gotten better. And I had gotten better. But she still threatens to kill herself and he still hits me and I'm still broken.
My biggest mistake is allowing a memory from the past to interfere with the present.

I was in love with a co-worker at a former job. I met him in 1998 when I started working there and fell pretty hard. He showed some signs of being interested, but we never dated - the best I could do is ask him to lunch and he shot me down. I left the job in 2005 to move away and get married. Fast forward to now... my marriage has gone way downhill in the past year and I think it's beyond saving. I'm much happier alone than spending more than 20 minutes with my husband. I still think of him - I thought about him off and on throughout engagement and marriage, even in the so-called happy times. Now what I want more than anything is to just get together with him once and get to know him, even though I haven't seen him in four years. I have let this "memory" of something that never was and never will be interfere with my life for too long and I cannot let it go.
35/F

Monday, February 1, 2010

My secret mistake is not fighting for you like i knew i could.
And now you just want to be friends. I know everyone is telling me to give it time but i cant. i fell for you so hard.
truth is i dont want to move on and i dont want anyone else just you.
Maybe we were only together for 2 months and dated for 2, i feel like ive never trusted someone so much.

You're taking over my emotions and my life.
Ive been in this ugly disgusting mood for a week now,and i hate it.
I know im stronger than this but i feel so weak.
Truth is i love you
And i cant believe i never told you that..
My mistake is letting you go.
I loved you, and you loved me, but I thought you were going to hurt me.
So instead of letting that happen, I broke up with you, to stop that pain from coming into my life. But that just brought more pain.
So, now, here I am, almost one whole year later, crying in my room, with a knife to my wrist, because of myself. It's all my fault. I made a mistake, and I regret it.
But I know you'll never take me back.

Monday, January 25, 2010

My regretst was pushing you so far away that I could never reach you again.

I took way to long to open up an show my real personality at school.

Not learning a strig instrument.

Hooking up with you at the beach.

Not telling him my feelings.

And letting you slip through my fingers. I could of had you. And now your gone
My secret mistake was trusting you and your lies when in reality it was all money in your eyes .

I trusted you this much that now i fear to trust anyone else .even myself.

I cry every day and night just because i made a mistake making my heart harsh enough to stop me living another life.
My secret mistake is not telling anyone I'm a lesbian, because I am afraid of what people will think, and I don't want to hurt my family. I don't want to be any weirder than I already am--but living a lie is making me miserable. I tell people I enjoy being alone, nope, sorry, not looking for a boyfriend right now.

I know one day I will get a boyfriend, just so I won't be alone. But I will hate every minute of it. Fear--it's my disease. And eventually it will kill me.

20/f

Monday, January 18, 2010

My secret mistake staying with you. I don't remember the last time you told me I was pretty, the last time you kissed me with love and passion. Well he did. I could be with him right now, instead I'm here alone waiting for you.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I regret not kissing you when you wanted me to because i knew you loved her and also loved me. Now, i have no chance of ever getting you back, because now, she makes you happier than i ever could. I'm so sorry that i made that mistake.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I regret not telling anyone how i felt about you until it was too late. I regret that i didn't do anything about it when i knew you like me too. For almost two years now i have tried to get over you but i cant and it doesn't help when i see you at least every month and always have to hear about you. We ignore each other now but i wish you would just talk to me. I miss you but i know things will never be the same.
I regret not making myself move much sooner. I regret I'm slowly sinking underwater and I can't resurface. I regret that every night when I go into my room I pull out the knife I hid under my bed and I try to find the strength to just end it. I regret that there's only one person who I walays think about that prevents me from taking that leap.

I don't regret loving my neice, she is keeping me alive this very moment.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

My secret mistake? Not asking for a way to contact him. Will I ever see him again?
My biggest mistake was not kissing you that night.

I wanted too, and you wanted too, and now look where we are.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

my secret mistake is.. cheating on every boyfriend I've ever had. I regret it, but still can't stop myself from doing it. I can't help but wonder if this has anything to do with the fact that I was molested at age 14? Now I've met the most kind and loving man I've ever been with and everyday is a struggle for me to be monogamous. He loves me and I love him more than I've ever loved anyone else, ever.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

my biggest mistake is getting rid of the baby. i dont care if you would have left, i would have been a good mom. i could handle it.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

My secret mistake is letting you demean the person I know I could be. I tell everyone how wonderful you are but I keep it inside that I know I could be a much better person without you. My mistake was letting you be the one by my side for 6 years, having children with you and marrying you. I love you. You are good in so many ways. But my mistake is ignoring your faults.
my secret mistake is letting myself become addicted to pain killers. I've had three instances where I have exaggerated the pain I was in so the doctor will give me something a little stronger than ibuprofen. I've taken one every night before I go to bed for several weeks. My husband doesn't know. He just thinks I'm tired. I am tired. I'm tired of relying on them just so I can sleep.

23/f

Sunday, October 18, 2009

My biggest Mistake was letting you go. I was scared to let you in and hurt me, but really I hurt us both by pushing you away.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

My biggest mistake was imagining up a person i was very close to, and then having him die willingly.

I only imagined him for about 3 months, but i imagined he'd always been there, helping me through growing up and hard times i had gone thru in earlier yrs, like a brother and guardian. then he died.

He never existed. But i made him so real to me that whenevr i think about his passing away, it makes me cry myself to sleep. He's real to me...

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

My mistake? Going to the doctor and getting back on the meds after being clean (albeit in agony) almost a year. Sure, they give me relief? But as long as I have them you insist that I share them with you and once again I am out of meds two whole weeks early and tomorrow I'll be sick and in pain again until I can get a refill- at which point, you'll expect me to share with you again.

I love you to death, my husband, but I can't keep doing this. I'm scared to death to be sick again, to try and go to work that way, clammy, in pain, diarrhea and cold-sweats, anxious and angry; but those two weeks of pain free existence were ALMOST worth it.

Still, I can't keep doing it.

I never should have gone back on the meds, I NEVER should have agreed to share them, now?

Now I'm screwed again.
My secret mistake is pretty gross. While cooking one night, I thought I had gravy on my finger and licked it off, but then I realized it was parrot poop, not gravy at all! While it had no taste, I started gagging just knowing what was in my mouth! Gross!
My mistake is having sex with your best friend when we broke up.

The next mistake was getting back together with you soon after.

The next mistake was getting pregnant...and you walking away.

Now I don't know who my daughter's father is, there is a chance it's either one of you. I'm too scared to tell anyone. Or tell you that we need a DNA test.

22.f
my biggest mistake is sleeping with you, even though i know you're perfectly happy and married to her.
we both now have a secret that can never be let loose.

the biggest part of this mistake is that i've now turned you into a living lie, always lying to her to keep her happy, thinking she has the most perfect husband in the world.
i'm sorry that i did this to you but not sorry it happened. you could have stopped it whenever you wanted but you didn't - i knew you wanted me too.. not only as your best friend but as a lover.
My secret mistake was living my life doing what i should have done instead of what I wanted to do: married the right man instead of the one I loved because he would have been the best provider and father for my future children ( which he did),staying and sacrificing my dreams instead of going and risk failure,so others could live in their comfort zone, not leaving this loveless marriage and run with love when life gave me a second change at love. Now I have a life full of right things done, unfulfilled dreams, and emptiness because by doing what i should have done, i made others happy but my self.
Lying to my friend, where it forever hangs over me.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

My mistake is having sex with your best friend when we broke up.

The next mistake was getting back together with you soon after.

The next mistake was getting pregnant...and you walking away.

Now I don't know who my daughter's father is, there is a chance it's either one of you. I'm too scared to tell anyone. Or tell you that we need a DNA test.

22.f
my biggest mistake is sleeping with you, even though i know you're perfectly happy and married to her.
we both now have a secret that can never be let loose.

the biggest part of this mistake is that i've now turned you into a living lie, always lying to her to keep her happy, thinking she has the most perfect husband in the world.
i'm sorry that i did this to you but not sorry it happened. you could have stopped it whenever you wanted but you didn't - i knew you wanted me too.. not only as your best friend but as a lover.

Monday, August 31, 2009

MY BIGGEST MISTAKE IS THE LAST 8 YEARS... ITS BEEN MISTAKE AFTER MISTAKE AND IT ALL STARTED WHEN I CHOSE TO DROP OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL AND GET MARRIED.

NOW I AM DIVORCED, WITHOUT A HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA AND CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHAT I AM DOING WITH MY LIFE AT 26.

AND THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF ALL IS ALL OF IT HAPPENED BECAUSE OF MY FATHER CHEATING ON MY MOTHER AND I'M THE ONE WHO LET HIS MISTAKE RUIN MY LIFE!!

26/F
My BIGGEST mistake was telling myself I was IN LOVE with you when I wasn't and moving across the country to be with you. When the fact is... I don't even know what love is anymore since my EX broke my heart, and I have spent the past several years trying to force myself to love in hopes that it will magically really happen and I can finally settle down and start a family.

But now I spend everyday trying to figure out how I am going to leave you and where I am going to go next.

There is no LOVE here and I believe you feel the exact same way!
My secret mistake was never telling anyone that i love you each and every moment of my life.
The biggest mistake of my life was getting into that car with him and driving to the motel. There is no reason and no excuse, not even the money. It's left me feeling empty and unable to fill myself.
YOU are my biggest mistake. It was a mistake ever letting you back into my life. Especially now that I'm married to someone else. It was a mistake letting you kiss me, and my mistake for not ever finding out how to stop loving you, even after you broke my heart.
1. Falling for a guy like you
2. Falling for you because I pitied you
3. Blinding myself
4. Telling you how I felt
5. Accepting your "Let's forget and be friend request" just because I knew I was your only one.
6. Ignoring you after a month of not seeing you.
7. Ruining you just because I was capable.
8. Taking away everyone else you had.
9.Being such a bitch to you.
10. Feeling as if I made a mistake.

I don't know if I'm sorry though.
My biggest mistake is letting you go, you were the best friend i've ever had, i deserved it though, i treated you like shit because i was an addict.
my secret mistake is always going back to you, after 5 years now. you're not worth my time and i could do so much better..you said so yourself. and the mistake of letting myself become so insanely vulnerable. i'm putting an end to this.
My biggest mistake was going after the guy that dumped me after a dinky four month relationship for another YEAR. I wish I just got over him then and there instead of wasting away for a year. I'm glad I'm over that creep.
My secret mistake is that the people who know me think i have friends and a boyfriend. When in reality for the past six years i have had no social life and no friends and i sit in every night. Now i am tired of lying.

F/35

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My biggest mistake was ever believing that i was anything but your favorite screw.
my secret mistake is letting you sneak into my room that night; and letting you take my virginity; when you didn't even know you were. and letting you wipe my tears, believing all your pretty lies. the even bigger mistake is, still loving you through it all.
My secret mistake is letting myself swallowed by guilt for what I did to you years ago now that I was finally happy with my life. I hope you are well and that something good came out of it for you too.
my biggest mistake was putting me first; my job, my family, becoming a professional wrestler, and my friends.

my biggest mistake is not putting you first when you hated your job, when your family was falling apart, when you wanted to become an ASL interpreter, and when you were slowly losing your friends.

i drove us apart, you deserved better. and now i sit here a year later waking up every morning feeling empty cuz i dreampt of me putting you first...

m/20
Never should I have taken that first cigaret and I should NEVER EVER have blamed myself and grabbed heroin.
My regret is your mistake...I regret not to have contacted you after you wrote me. My regret became aware after 10 years when I cried and realised I missed you. When you noticed my grief you considered it a mistake to let me love you with my innocent and young heart.
My Sercret mistake is cheating on you while you were over seas... I'm sorry...
My secret mistake is pretending that I was attracted to you and staging a pseudo-relationship with you just because you claimed you were suicidal and I felt bad for you, but the more I talked to you, the more I decided you were faking it, and that's when I cut our "relationship" off. I was never attracted to you, I just wanted to help you get back on your feet and made the mistake of acting stupid because I didn't know what to say. Not only was I not attracted to you physically, I didn't even like your whiny, bitchy, emo personality, I only kept the charade up because I thought you were emotionally unstable and didn't want to be the source of more trouble for you. It was one of the worst months of my life. I made myself look like a fool in front of everyone I know, but even worse, I was untrue to myself.
My secret mistake is to allow you to bring out the worst in me, and still blame and punish myself and endure everything else because I love you.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

My biggest mistake was letting him hold me, and wishing that you held me the same way.
sending you those pictures and beileving you when you said forever. everytime it was just another pretty lie
My secret mistake is talking about you so much when you broke up with me.
My mistake is not telling D that I loved him when I had the chance. It doesn't matter now. He wasn't and probably never will be ready for a relationship with me. But I still wish that I could tell him in person without losing my voice.
My secret mistake was letting you get to me. almost a year later, and you still get to me.
my secret mistake is still being married to you, knowing im probably not in love with you!
I slept with your friend when we broke up. I miss you so much but I cant forgive myself.
my secret mistake is...letting you take the best part of me. i fell for you like a runaway jet, didn't care and had no regrets. but now, i see it was a HORRIBLE mistake...cause now you don't give a shit about me, while i am still falling helplessly in love with you.

~female 16~
My secret mistake is not going back to him when he gave me a second chance. I still miss him terribly. It doesn't feel like it's beeen over a year.
My secret mistake is that I sent him those pictures on IM last year.

Female, 15
My secret mistake is to allow you to bring out the worst in me, and still blame and punish myself and endure everything else because I love you.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

My secret mistake is that I couldn't even bring myself to tell about my mistake to total strangers .

Monday, October 27, 2008

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