My BIGGEST mistake was telling myself I was IN LOVE with you when I wasn't and moving across the country to be with you. When the fact is... I don't even know what love is anymore since my EX broke my heart, and I have spent the past several years trying to force myself to love in hopes that it will magically really happen and I can finally settle down and start a family.

But now I spend everyday trying to figure out how I am going to leave you and where I am going to go next.

There is no LOVE here and I believe you feel the exact same way!