My biggest mistake was imagining up a person i was very close to, and then having him die willingly.

I only imagined him for about 3 months, but i imagined he'd always been there, helping me through growing up and hard times i had gone thru in earlier yrs, like a brother and guardian. then he died.

He never existed. But i made him so real to me that whenevr i think about his passing away, it makes me cry myself to sleep. He's real to me...